Hello (:

Hee,yes. I promised to blog only after 2 weeks times but Im a lil uptight in the brain?
So started my day with chores and decided to have a trio lunch date with my sis and our friend.
And we were dining at PizzaHut. Since I sat beside the glass window,I can see people on the ground level. I was drinking my pepsi and looking outside. Thats when it struck me. It's some guy. I totally had forgotten abt him. I thought he never existed. Seeing him just now was pain. Now,I gotta overcome it again. Slowly.

So, I told RF and he wasnt happy abt some things. W he said is now leaving me thinking.
Why must so much things happen when my Os are nearing? Guys problems starts to pop up everytime any examination is nearby. Like once,I was trying to calm my nervous nerves,this guy came up to me and gave me a love letter. I was ultra distracted during the exam. I mean,come on!
Heh.

Idk. There's two sides of opinion right now. Im told too stay by straong self but hello,since when Im strong? Sheesh. This is stressing.
Thats all. Off to do some mugging.

With Love,
AllisonMiller

Hello,Earthlings (:

I just surf the net on NAFA and LaSalle.
I feel like going to Art school suddenly. I wanna take up either dance or theater but it has no link to my ambition. Heh. Who cares abt ambition,I can figure it along the way. I guess?
Hee. But La Salle's expectation fr dance is scary. I dont dance contemporary or ballet or jazz! And I'll be working on my Hiphop aft Os. Hope it would help. (:

OMGAWWWDD! Sudden obsession fr Art school. Hehe.
Thats all fr today. Os will be starting next week. Wont be updating till 2 weeks time.
With Love,
AllisonMiller

Holla (:

Alright,Im feeling epic tense. There's so much things Im thinking about now.
&& at the end of the day today,Im getting blame all over again.

Im not trying to be impertinent but honestly,you think its my fault?
I dont think so.
I dont decide fr pple to stay by my side. They made their choice.
Ive tried pushing them away like how Ive tried pushing you away but obviously,it aint working out.
How mean of you to actually make it sound like Im THAT cruel to hurt pple's feelings.
Ive got no choice. I cant put them at gun point and tell them to leave.
Sometimes,I think you want everything to yourself. Ive never really been in love but Im sure there's two sides to everything.
1. You give in,make your loved ones happy or 2. you fight fr your loved ones. Idk what youre trying to do.
In addition,at times we dont realise things we had said hurt pple's feelings till we've been informed.
I tried doing that but you never change,have you? Youre still the same you. You cant accpt W critisicm given to you but you asked for them.
Idk in what other nicest manner I can put this to you. W Im saying right now is very cliche' huh?
And like Ive said,Im not perfect either but at least Im trying to change fr the better.
I gave in a lot more coz' I want peace btwn us despite it eating me up on the inside,I dont mind at all so long as we're gd.
Idk about you. And as I was saying,the way you say things can be hurtful eventhough its just any other word.
But the way you put it is so wrong and hurtful. Yeahs,I speak my mind with terrible manners at times but at least I get my message through and not beat arnd the bush.
Time and again,Idk what language to talk to you,man.
Goddammit. Do you know how stressful it is to handle so many pple going after the same thing/person.
Its VERY stressful and FYI,I didnt ask fr this. All I ever wanted was a decent life. And if you could help me,please stop making my life miserable.
You cant stoop so low to my wanted standard then leave me and dont ever bother with me ever again. Yeahs,sounds simple
Sound like I can adapt to you leaving but in actual fact,no.
No,I cant. But at least life would be better for you coz' there's no one arnd to correct your mistakes,I hope.
And you were absolutely burning with envy when I dont argue or scold the rest often. But do you know why? You dont.
So stop looking at things the way you see it. You gotta see in too deep. You make think this is crappy and aint making sense but would take some time and reflect over things.
Think you way through slowly coz' I already did. Youre just too intense. You need to chill,dude.





Please Don't Leave Me Lyrics

Da da da da, da da da da
Da da da da-da da

I don't know if I can yell any louder
How many time have I kicked you outta here?
Or said something insulting?
da da da da-da
I can be so mean when I wanna be
I am capable of really anything
I can cut you into pieces
When my heart is....broken

Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

How did I become so obnoxious?
What is it with you that makes me act like this?
I've never been this nasty
Can't you tell that this is all just a contest?
The one that wins will be the one that hits the hardest
But baby I don't mean it
I mean it, I promise

Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Da da da-da da
Please don't leave me
Da da da-da da
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this
Please, don't leave me

I forgot to say out loud how beautiful you really are to me
I can't be without, you're my perfect little punching bag
And I need you, I'm sorry.

Da da da da, da da da da
da da da da-da da
Please, please don't leave me

Baby please don't leave me
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me no no no
You say I don't need you but it's always gonna come right back,
It's gonna come right back to this.
Please, don't leave me.
No.
No, don't leave me
Please don't leave me, oh no no no.
I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this

Please don't leave me
Please don't leave me

With Love,
AllisonMiller

Hello readers.
This post is dedicated to Mr. Coward.
He should know who he is. Hopefully he visit this blog and Razif's blog.

So I have a few things to say and I'm done here,alright.

"Ive got nth much to say to you actually,coward. But I see no point in you threatening my friend. You mess with my friend,youre messing with me too.So stop picking up those phone but instead,get your ass right infront of my face where I can see you,jerk. Ive had enough of people messing around with my life. So stop being a coward,yeah. "

Hello Earthlings (:
Yeahs,yeahs. Os coming and I shld be mugging etcetc.
Please. Stop. Your nagging aint working out.

So I slept quite early ytd,arnd 12+am.
Had a chat with Mr. AF.
He was there consoling me all night. Well,smth was bugging me and he keep pestering me to tell him what happened. I did and yeahs.

My head was hurting so bad ytd with all that thinking. Mr. AF was a lil upset due to ...
So,I woke up pretty late. Why?
Coz that's the only time when my brain switch off and my mind stop thinking aka stop hurting so bad. I didnt even wanna get off my bed today! Haha.

So did absolutely nth today. Will be mugging at night,I guess.

"I really am so confused. Both of us want our way and obviously it aint working out.Why? YOUR attitude. I aint saying Im perfect and I dont claim to be but at least Im better off than you. I srsly do not know how to get it in your brain that its all coz' of YOU. Yeahs,my anti-guy just doubled its hatred since what,ytd? Yeahs. Guys are pure assholes. They only know how to blame a girl,take ANY girl fr a one night stand, hurt a girl and guys only knows how to make a girl's life miserable. That's what guys do. I dont listen to bullshit like "NOT all guys are the same" Please. Spare me that crap. Thats bullshit. Yeahs,ya'll heard me. Its super duper annoying. And dont worry,I got evidence that guy sucks. Apparently,a lot of them. But at the end of the day,I still do not know what to do. I do A,its wrong. I do B,its not turning out well. I dont do anything,it gets worse. So,whathellsxz? And what I see is that,you can actually survive without me but you aint leaving,why? You wanna make my life miserable. Erm,FYI,its miserable enough and no amount of effort can make me feel worse. "Identifying the issue and then telling your partner your specific complaint and how you feel". Uh,to whoever wrote that line,I did and it didnt work out. So,work on new strategies,yeahs?
Bottom line:
Different people,different way of approach"

Hello,readers.
I am so mad and I mean,really mad. Plusplus,frustrating too.
But ofcourse,Im keeping my cool (:

I so wanna go for a run but I cant fr 3 reasons:
- I promise Mr. AF not to :(
- Im not allowed to by D.
- My leg hurts,so bad.

So,today had my graduation day.
It wasnt as touching and emotional coz' Im still coming back to school fr Os.
Annoying much?

So,today I had perjumpaan Hari Raya @ Jurongville Sec.
Well,aft graduation I rushed home to changed etc and two irritating guys were super impatient.
Sheesh. They rushed me,met at my bustop and waited fr Ashri @ Lot one. While waiting I got bullied sia. Sheesh.
Then headed too JurongVille sec and met a few familiar faces,ended and home.

Im off to get some rest,Im tired.
XOXO,
AllisonMiller

Holla(:

People are counting down to how many days Os are coming but Im counting down to how many days Os are gonna end. In less than a month! Haha.
Looking forward to Os ending is the only reason why Im living each day now.
W.

So,I'll be having tuition later. Should I make it the last one or next week the last one?
Hm...

Okay,Im actually very stressed on the inside but Im keeping my cool.
So many things to do. But amazingly,Im looking forward to O level E&AMaths paper.
Funny isnt it. Haha.

Alright,I have many things to do ahead of me today.
Mug-Tuition-Mug-Sleep.
Haha. Dengar dengar banyak pe.

With Love,
AllisonMiller (:

Holla!
Guess what! I just surf th net about increasing my metabolism rate.
&& I've calculated that I gotta eat only 1597 calories per day.
My habit of skipping meals due to loss of appetite is unhealthy and I'm gonna stop that.
I'm also making sure that I go for a run min. one day per week but aft my Os,I'm gonna chiong my physical activities session. Hehheh.
I also gotta drink plenty of plain water. Hm. I just so wanna slim down so badly. Gahh.
Plus,Im gonna TRY to eat healthy snacks. (Eww)

God,Im so excited just thinking abt when my Os are over.
Come on,Os can you end faster but starts later?
Haha.

So,Im gonna study freaking hard if I wanna enjoy my hols. (:
Alrightaye,Im off to do some mugging then going for a run later and mugging again at night till 1am? Idk.
Toodles.
XOXO,
AllisonMiller

Wow. This blog is dead.
W. I'll be back when my Os are over.
But now,I got smth to say. I gotta let smth out.

"I wonder why am I needed in your life? What am I? Your dog? You can actually live without me. You have many other girls you can depend on. I srsly do not know what to do now. I'm at lost. Mr. AF may be right. He knows LIFE better than I do. But as said,I'm sorry Mr. AF. Its not me. Nvmd. I shall give in though its eating me in the inside. Well,it seems like you dont need me anymore. Truly. I sometimes wonder if you being in LWM is true. Stupid huh. But at times,I feel like its so fake. Idk. How I wish ya'll never exist. I got things to say but I wanna keep quiet coz' Im tired. Okay,wth. What I gotta do? "

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